The M Word

”Hey, how’s it going ?”

My co-worker who’s a very beautiful woman surprised me.

”Hey, good. How’s stuff? Your husband?” I replied. Still remember that sometimes I think that his husband is lucky for having her. Whenever she walks all eyes will have desires to gaze at her body. Everyone who knows her will love to chat with her.

Then she started telling me the fights both of them had last week. It was the worst one, she said. Even her parents give it up to her if she wanna get a divorce.

”Oh, ok.” I shortly responded.

Then I don’t know why the stories shifted to her past, about how she loves her ex so much and so does he, apparently they just didn’t get married. Her blue eyes were shining so bright that they hurt mine when she told me her parents now feel sorry that she didn’t get married with him. The last words I could remember hearing from her was her husband is nothing compared to him.

While she kept on talking, I suddenly saw a word ‘disgusting’ torn on her forehead, her tounge transformed to a snake, five horns grown on her head and her skin looked like a frog’s.

She kept on talking. I had to run away, didn’t know how I could stand it. But right at the parking lot, I fell down on my knees and started throwing up on the snowed dirt.

And she kept on talking.

Fly Up High

Mom, today I talked to you and I feel so deeply touched. I never see you crying ever since Dad’s gone. You never cried whenever you saw us crying as well. You always tell us “be tough, be tough, he doesn’t want us to fail.” And now after more than 10 years, I saw you crying in front of me (sometimes I used to see you cry alone in your room, but you never know that). I’m sorry, I cried, too when I saw you crying.

I know this year may be the worst one since he left us. Our plane had almost crushed from high above that time. But you saved us, you took us flying up high again. And I thank you for that. I praise you. I adore you. No wonder he loved you so much.

Today’s worse than yesterday. Al got fired today because he argued with his boss. You don’t know that. We won’t tell you that, because we know you’ve had enough. And the rose I planted last year is dead today. Its’ roots have been dying I guess, and it’s better to let it go. Sorry I didn’t tell you that either.

Even though we feel the hard shake of the turbulance, we never give up. I’m not scared. He told me he’s not scared either. We will survive like we always have. I promise you the plane will fly back high again. We’ll deal with the suffering and the pain like we used to. I don’t want to see anymore tears of you, mom. Never. I prayed today that even though you have to leave us one day, I want you to see that we do much better than we are now. I want to see the lovely smile on your beautiful face.

We love you, mom. We put our faith in you as you’ve put yours in us.